an urgent but not necessary cry for help

5:00-6:30 draft 1 - 11:00- final draft 1:30

Dear all,

I am about to shout a loud, deep, urgent cry for help even as I am at the same time OK. 

[Oh boy Farbs, here you go again. Come on, Bring it. Give it to us. We’re ready] 

Yet I simply can not go on as I have been going on for the last four weeks - a full lunar month since I realized that I wanted to run for public office and made my decision on Sunday, December 19 that I would seek the position of Congressman of the United States of America in an attempt to right some past wrongs, to make our country stronger, to help our children get a better and more appropriate 21st-century education and to work as best I can toward bridging a gap between the two countries and people I love the USA and the PRC, but I am nearing my wits end.  Again, I am ok. I am fine, no problem at at. If you are wondering candidate Farber how can both things be true simultaneously - at the same time

Within the last several weeks two entirely unexpected things happened to me and therefore also indirectly happened to my campaign. One very even rather unfortunate event set me back a week or so or more and which has yet to be revealed to the larger public, but which I can handle on my own “if- or.” And here the "if-or" is key.

First, the if. I can handle that unexpected and unfortunate incident if I reverse course end my campaign for Congress and settle back into a role as an online teacher and tutor either for good which would make me feel disappointed because I feel I’ve found my calling or at least until I acquire sufficient resources that I have learned in a short time are necessary to run for one of the highest offices - not in the executive branch of course, but in the legislative-   in the land in the richest city and suburban region in that land.  

I told interested parties who attended my announcement meeting on Tuesday, December 5 2023 at 7:30 pm held on that day to Honor our great civil rights leader and hero MLK Jr’s entrance into the political realm as a leader if not a leader seeking political office.  Certainly,  his speech on that Tuesday evening 3 score and 8 years ago set our nation on a path towards a new future and better one resulting eventually in a level of equality and justice achieved only when legal segregation was brought to an end and voting and other civil rights were guaranteed legal means if not,  in fact, in reality.   

I simply can not battle the forces. I can not reach the folks who I need to reach who need to hear my message with my limited resources which are now  - to be fully and forthcomingly honest in the red.  Yes, that’s right. For those who still believe that having assets of a few million dollars not just 1 or even 2 does not make you rich my real and actual net worth at this moment is not only in the red but it is and my credit card is almost maxed out.  Now when I go to shop for just about anything I tell the shop owner that it’s possible my card may be declined, but so far that has only happened once. And in fact In that case I had merely forgotten to move some funds from one account to another. So it's not as serious as it sounds.  I have some funds left in one of my accounts but I need that to pay my rent when it comes due at the end of the month. In the simplest sense of the word in the truest sense I am flat broke, but as I said I am Ok.  Why? How can that be? Well because I have a part-time job tutoring kids and the managers love me and they have made it absolutely clear to me that they hope I stay and that they have sufficient work for me if and when I need and want it. They know I have other ambitions in the political realm and feel proud of me, and some especially are cheering me on and believe I’d make a great Congressman, but they also know that sometimes dreams die  Therefore I am fine and ok, but those resources - my time energy and ability - which I have felt have been underfunded and underinvested at a level wholly incompatible with my ability my interest and my desire to serve and work for others are not sufficient for me to run an expensive political campaign for Congress.  Teachers with my kind of experience who leave the system to help the really needed - , the abused, the disabled the anxious, the punished - with homebound tutoring for example simply do not earn very much money. I earn enough to live and that’s fine and no problem, but I can’t do both much longer - there isn’t enough time in the day or money -  certainly can’t really do both for very much longer not even really for another 24 hours longer as exaggerated as that might sound.  

If, and, I couldn’t be more serious and clear about this, I do not get a political organization bank account opened soon. By say tomorrow afternoon Monday, December 18, and if by the end of business Monday, December 18 or maybe by Tuesday, December 19, I don’t begin to see significant resources in that account I will begin to steer my future direction more in line with continuing in the online teaching and tutoring assignments that pay me a wage that can afford my life as a simple man with a cat, but no more. That life is fine and I can enjoy that life. I can walk to the park, eat simple meals, read great books share time with friends and family, and the like but I simply can not run a campaign for Congress of the United States on a salary of several hundred dollars a week working teaching  20+ hours per week and requiring some additional prep and grading time to do that work and work 12-15 hours a day on my campaign which is what I have been doing for the last month. I simply can not go on like this. I am running myself ragged and things are just about getting started. Is it all over already?

Why am I in this situation?  Well as with most things they are both simple and complex and I will try to explain. What after all is a politician if not an explainer-in-chief.  As I mentioned in an earlier passage a very unfortunate and unexpected thing happened to me and my campaign, that set me back not just a week.  This sort of thing has happened to me many times before and when it happened again about 10 days ago it forced me to rethink my entire campaign strategy.  Besides taking time and energy and some focus away from helping the campaign progress, it also forced me to think how I could run the campaign having significantly fewer individual resources than I expected to have for at least the next 6 months or longer.   Luckily I was able to get clarification that I would be able to match that loss from another source and avoid some sort of personal bankruptcy, and thank god for that.

And then a second really, unexpected thing happened last week which also has yet to be revealed to the public and is also something that I really can not reveal in full detail. Simply put, it’s not my story I tell and I don’t break confidences. It might be revealed at some point but I am not the person to reveal it. Again it's just not my story to tell. It’s that simple. 

The potential of this second story/ event to overcompensate for the unfortunate incident that took-took place a day or so after I announced my candidacy can not be understated.  I was shocked floored and greatly humbled when I learned of this possibility which it should not even be described as.  It is a potential opportunity, but one with such awesome power to change not just the course of my campaign but the course of my life and my family. I’m not married yet but there is a special lady in Japan that I’ve known for 7-8 years and it seems like we have finally pushed through -   passing our fears and concerns and I think really I have finally found my Ms right,I've never been married, and while she was married many many years ago, I think she also has a similar feeling about me. She is from a less developed area of Japan on its west coast, and I think this is why we connect. She is principled, honorable and decent and like many Japanese, a sweetheart and boy oh boy can she play Latin jazz with the best of them. She was the only non-Cuban regular musician at Victor’s Cafe in midtown Manhattan for a few years before the pandemic hit which forced a gig-playing musician like herself to be out of work. I still remember watching her play at Birdland and the Blue Note. Wow, can she play!. She’s also a composer too and did a lot of work with nonprofits, libraries and, such around the city during her 20 or so years here. can not he 

This potential opportunity could avail me of resources for example that could allow me and possibly a traveling companion or two, like someone who I still sort of feel responsible for even if he is beginning to make his way in the world, to travel to every corner of the globe as I work to try to understand the challenges our nation faces, better understand opportunities we have yet to discover and seek out those with visions of paths toward peace that may be waiting to be harvested.

But I can’t,  if-or” at the same time much longer, probably not even for more than another day or two.  I have bills to pay,  a credit card that is maxed out, and the holiday season is upon us. Two even fairly cheap tickets to see Travis Scott at MSG are expensive for online tutors and teachers like me, but he's special to me so I said Let’s goooooo for it and he’s excited. I took him to see Kendrick years ago and while he loved it, I well...

So even if I’m just about flat broke, I decided some weeks ago that if I decided to enter the race I would do so with fearlessness,  and summons confidence deep within me  that until fairly recently didn’t always manifest itself in the same kind of way Was I always confident to talk to almost anyone, anywhere and at any time, yes but the convince to stand up to anyone anywhere and anytime and in public in front of cameras, that's a new level, but now I feel I can and am and with eerie new hurdle I feel stronger.

Hopefully, my sun will learn to feel confident too from seeing me Letsssss Goooo.

When I decided to allow my credit card to come close to its max, something  I would never have allowed to happen in the past I never anticipated that the first unfortunate event would have happened, especially after being somewhere for five years.  Wow, was I unprepared for that.  As the saying goes, Man Plans God Laughs. It shook me hard but I was able to find my whereabouts and like I said with the clear commitment that I have for work to make up for this unexpected loss in resources, But I’ve put in like 4, 100 hour work weeks basically as a volunteer for my Farber2024 campaign. That can’t go on.   As I said the bad news did let me rethink my overall strategy for the campaign and when I  learned about  1 week ago that the election would not take place until the end of June instead of early April, I calculated and recalibrated my plans and thought ok I know how to move on and was ready to do so.

Then last week something altogether unexpected happened again this time for the better.  If and when I get a political organization bank account opened for Farber2024 and I hope that can happen ASAP, I hope I will have sufficient resources to move my campaign forward.  I told everyone who attended my declaratory meeting on Tuesday evening December 5 that my announcement that night wasn’t a full declaration of candidacy but rather an announcement that I was officially exploring a potential candidacy for Congress but that if things went as I expected they would  - hahaha - I believed that I would be able to declare a full and genuine run for office sometime just after the New Year.  

And this is really where the river meets the road. It is now Sunday/Monday,  December 17/18, 2023.  I told my supporters at my announcement meeting that I would do a few things between that night after the meeting ended and sometime around January 2 or 3m 2024: 

One, I would work hard to campaign which I have done 

Two, I would stop campaigning from December 23 to January 1, 2024

I said based on what would and would not happen over that exploratory period that I would consider everything in depth both from a political standpoint and a personal standpoint and consult with those close to me, but ultimately make my own decision which would be announced just after the New Year.

The problem is that I can not have the information that I need to make this decision until and unless I know more about the viability of my campaign, and I can’t do that until I  hear from the pocketbooks of any, and all supporters of my candidacy, They cant show or fail to show support until they can donate financially and they can’t do that until I have a legal and appropriate bank account for political organizations for Farber 2024. So  I am urging the powers that be to please do everything in their power to open a political organization account for Farber 2024 by 2 pm,  Monday, December 18 at a bank branch in Manhattan somewhere close to 59th street on the east side. 

A bank with a small number of officials like the one near me, I think places too much pressure on workers who are rather busy dealing with the needs of many small business owners and their ever-changing needs.  A local bank doesn’t seem to me to be the place for an account for a candidate seeking national office.  I live near the N line in Astoria and a bank just over the border of Manhattan near an N station would be ideal.  Once the account is open or arranged I could come into the branch to sign my name and then any US citizen would have the right to contribute to Farber2024 according to FEC law.

PACs have contribution rules that are entirely different under US election law. PACs by law can not coordinate with campaigns. In fact, it is illegal for them to do so. They may or may not contribute to Farber2024 as they wish. It will only be after I have a Farber2024 campaign account open for at least several days that I have some real tangible understanding of the viability of a true and serious run for a position in Washington DC representing the Great State of NY. Therefore I am urging those who can to please help me open a political organization account for Farber2024 at a larger bank office somewhere around 59th St in Manhattan’s east side. Ideally somewhere near the N subway line. Then we shall let the American people show whether or not they wish me to continue moving forward with my campaign or show by a lack of tangible financial support that my run for office right now or possibly ever is not justified or supported that my goal in seeking a position serving the people of The Great State of NY in the halls of our Nation's Capitol is not my path It's time to find out. I need to know now.

Thank you and God Bless America

And, may God protect our troops and our children

December 18, 2023

1:30 AM

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It all begins with an idea. Maybe you want to launch a business. Maybe you want to turn a hobby into something more. Or maybe you have a creative project to share with the world. Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference.

Don’t worry about sounding professional. Sound like you. There are over 1.5 billion websites out there, but your story is what’s going to separate this one from the rest. If you read the words back and don’t hear your own voice in your head, that’s a good sign you still have more work to do.

Be clear, be confident and don’t overthink it. The beauty of your story is that it’s going to continue to evolve and your site can evolve with it. Your goal should be to make it feel right for right now. Later will take care of itself. It always does.

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It all begins with an idea. Maybe you want to launch a business. Maybe you want to turn a hobby into something more. Or maybe you have a creative project to share with the world. Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference.

Don’t worry about sounding professional. Sound like you. There are over 1.5 billion websites out there, but your story is what’s going to separate this one from the rest. If you read the words back and don’t hear your own voice in your head, that’s a good sign you still have more work to do.

Be clear, be confident and don’t overthink it. The beauty of your story is that it’s going to continue to evolve and your site can evolve with it. Your goal should be to make it feel right for right now. Later will take care of itself. It always does.

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It all begins with an idea. Maybe you want to launch a business. Maybe you want to turn a hobby into something more. Or maybe you have a creative project to share with the world. Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference.

Don’t worry about sounding professional. Sound like you. There are over 1.5 billion websites out there, but your story is what’s going to separate this one from the rest. If you read the words back and don’t hear your own voice in your head, that’s a good sign you still have more work to do.

Be clear, be confident and don’t overthink it. The beauty of your story is that it’s going to continue to evolve and your site can evolve with it. Your goal should be to make it feel right for right now. Later will take care of itself. It always does.